Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering Gods grace in its various forms.

1 Peter 4:9-10

Wednesday, December 19, 2007


We've been inundated with turkeys! We think two separate flocks, one at least 20 large, and the other about 8 or so. We have these ancient crabapple trees on top of a hill in our front yard and the birds are after the fruit. It's really something to see them trying to balance their large bodies on small branches. They fan out their tailfeathers to balance themselves. And you want to talk about really stupid birds, they have absolutely no fear of humans. They'll parade down the middle of the road holding up all the cars until they've reached the place they want to go. No amount of horn blowing make them go any faster either! I'm surprised people have maintained their patience! Here's some pics of them:

On another note, we've also been having car trouble. The worst time of year for it to happen - when we have no money. What a difference in lifestyle from just a year ago...

Hubby's gone through bankruptcy and we've lost our house. Hubby switched jobs so he could be closer to home and be with us every night but the downfall is much less income. Believe me, I'd rather have him home every night at 5pm then having him call from a store 5 hrs away saying he'd be home by 10 or 11pm. Unfortunately we've had to make some painful sacrifices. It's hard on both of us and sometimes I don't think we really listen to each other any more. Not just to what we have to say to each other but how we say it. There's a lot of hurt feelings and guilty feelings. Hubby feels like he let us down by not providing enough for us to be able to keep our home. I would rather be here than where we were. He was miserable and stressed all the time. Not a good way to raise a baby. Now it's like, it is what it is - we're poor and dependant upon family to house us and there is nothing we can do about it for a long time. The most important thing is that LD is being raised in a home where everyone loves him. It is all about him after all! So now you know the last part of my story - I'm grieving our old life and our house along with the loss of our first son. LD was attacked by a dog we'd had for 10 yrs and lost part of his ear. We put the dog down and ever since we've been super protective of him. I don't want to suffocate him yet I want to protect him, too.

The anxiety attacks have been happening since the dog attack. I'd only had one prior to that and it was several months after we lost our first. Not fun in any way. They are painful and scary and I had to think that I have to depend on medication to control them. Fortunately it's not something I have to take everyday...only when I feel an attack coming on or when I'm particulary upset.

Man, I never used to be this way. I was fun to hang around with. Always up for going out and having fun. Hubby and I used to have so much fun together. I really miss that about us. And yet, as painful as the last two plus years have been, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Even having to suffer through anxiety attacks every now and then. Because if I did trade it all in, I wouldn't have my LD, and he's the best part of me. (He seems to have my temper though, oops!)

Here he is modeling the headband I made for our niece for Christmas! Something I can embarass him with the first time he brings home a date!

I'm still working on that sweater and trying to finish the hat. Somehow the will to do it has slipped away. I'm probably just burnt out with all the knitting I've been doing lately. I want to just get it done so I can start some new crochet projects. I'd like to make myself a simple tam. Maybe after the Christmas craze is finished!

Ciao and Happy Knitting! It's way past my bedtime!

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Books on Tap for 2011

  • Knit Together - Debbie Macomber
  • Captured by Grace - Dr. David Jeremiah
  • Murder Most Foul - A Collection of Great Crime Stories
  • Fireproof - Eric Wilson
  • There's Something About Christmas - Debbie Macomber
  • Questioning Evangelism - Randy Newman
  • Murder Uncorked - Michele Scott
  • A Sacred Sorrow - Michael Card
  • Prayer: Does it Make any Difference? - Philip Yancey
  • Get Out of That Pit - Beth Moore

Books Read in 2011

  • What a Sista Should Do - Tiffany L. Warren
  • 90 Minutes in Heaven - Don Piper
  • Forgotten God - Francis Chan
  • The Purpose Driven Life - Rick Warren
  • Dead Reckoning - Charlaine Harris
  • Shadowfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Chill Factor - Sandra Brown
  • Heaven Has a Blue Carpet - Sharon Niedzinski
  • Dreamfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Wednesday Sisters - Meg Waite Clayton
  • Stealing Home - Sherryl Woods
  • Bound for Murder - Laura Childs
  • Bloodfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Faefever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Darkfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Under Her Skin - Susan Mallery
  • The Red Pyramid - Rick Riordan
  • No Wonder They Call Him Saviour - Max Lucado
  • I Still Dream About You - Fannie Flagg
  • I Am Number Four - Pittacus Lore
  • The Last Olympian - Rick Riordan
  • Spider Bones - Kathy Reichs
  • A Thread So Thin - Marie Bostwick
  • The Battle of the Labyrinth - Rick Riordan
  • The Search - Nora Roberts
  • The Titan's Curse - Rick Riordan
  • Wicked Appetite - Janet Evanovich
  • The Sea of Monsters - Rick Riordan
  • Awakened - PC & Kristen Cast
  • The Lightning Thief - Rick Riordan
  • Photo Finished - Larua Childs
  • Keepsake Crimes - Laura Childs
  • Sizzling Sixteen - Janet Evanovich
  • The Icing on the Cupcake - Jennifer Ross
  • Fleece Navidad - Maggie Sefton
  • Dyer Consequences - Maggie Sefton
  • The Darling Dahlias and the Cucumber Tree - Susan Wittig Albert
  • Heaven Has a Blue Carpet - Sharon Niedzinski
  • Dreamfever - Karen Marie Moning

Books Read in 2010

  • The Yada Yado Prayer Group - Netta Jackson
  • Silver Borne - Patricia Briggs
  • The Hole in Our Gospel - Richard Stearns
  • A Winter Marriage - Kerry Hardie
  • So Long, Insecurity - Beth Moore
  • Knit the Season - Kate Jacobs
  • Dead and Berried - Karen MacInerney
  • Murder on the Rocks - Karen MacInerney
  • where do i go - Netta Jackson
  • be sweet - diane hunt
  • The Lost Symbol - Dan Brown
  • Raven - Allison Van Deipen
  • Push (Precious) - sapphire
  • Faces of the Gone - Brad Parks
  • The Lace Reader - Brunonia Barry
  • Burning Lamp - Amanda Quick
  • Fired Up - Jayne Ann Krentz
  • The School of Essential Ingredients - Erica Bauermeister
  • Matters Arising - Sarah Harrison
  • The Sheen on the Silk - Anne Perry
  • I Saw the Lord - Anne Graham Lotz
  • The Dangerous Protector - Janet Chapman
  • The Seduction of His Wife - Janet Chapman
  • Re-reading all the Tintin graphic novels - Herge
  • The Sugar Queen - Sarah Addison Allen
  • the last time i saw you - Elizabeth Berg
  • Garden Spells - Sarah Addison Allen
  • Wild Ride - Jennifer Crusie & Bob Mayer
  • Dead in the Family - Charlaine Harris
  • The Girl Who Chased the Moon - Sarah Addison Allen
  • Grave Secret - Charlaine Harris
  • Crawl Space - Sarah Graves
  • The Honey Thief - Elizabeth Graver
  • The Otherworldlies - Jennifer Anne Kogler
  • Saving CeeCee Honeycutt - Beth Hoffman
  • A Face at the Window - Sarah Graves
  • Draycott Eternal - Christina Skye
  • Shelter Mountain - Robin Carr
  • Virgin River - Robyn Carr
  • Death by Cashmere - Sally Goldenbaum
  • An Ice Cold Grave - Charlaine Harris
  • Grave Surprise - Charlaine Harris
  • Grave Sight - Charlaine Harris