Boredom and the Battle of the Bulge

No one ever said I was skinny and I'll be the first to admit how much I love to eat...but this is getting ridiculous. It's like I just can't say no. You know how people will drink during any occasion? Well, I'll create an occasion just to eat. Some months I do really well. I drop a few pounds, get a little exercise, start feeling pretty good. Other months pass by in a slump. This month it seems boredom is my excuse for a bag of chips and a platter of chocolate chip cookies. Did I mention homemade ccc's??? Sweet, chewy, gooey, buttery and luscious. But I digress. I'm supposed to feel badly about the, well, the bad stuff. As a pre-diabetic, I'm supposed to be getting a handle on the bad food eating so I don't actually develop the damned disease. How do you battle will power! I am more and more convinced that I actually may be a food addict. I don't binge eat or throw up or anything. I just can't say no when food is around. Then I feel guilty, which results in more bad eating and the cycle keeps going. Argh! The worst part is, I've actually been trying to eat better and lose a few pounds so I can wear my wedding best to a girlfriend's wedding. At this point, I'm guessing the wedding best will be a tad on the bulgy side. Again, argh! I think this battle is going to be one of those gorilla warfare things. It could last for many many years. And, again, argh! Someone stop the madness! I just want to eat cookies and cheese!