Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering Gods grace in its various forms.

1 Peter 4:9-10

Monday, July 28, 2008

Oh, Dear...

After much debate and many bouts of anxiety, I've finally come to the decision that I'm going to have to go back to work much sooner than I had anticipated. The problem isn't the work part because I actually love having some $$ in my pocket and interacting with adults. No, instead it is a much more serious and unexpected issue. I don't want to put the wild man in daycare! Can you imagine??? Those of you who know me are already surprised that I elected to stay home with him in the first place. Now that I am faced with having to put him into unknown and potentially dangerous hands I'm really freaking out. Like "waking up in the middle of the night in cold sweats" freaking out. You seasoned moms who have been dealing with the daycare issue all along might say, "buck up baby, we all have to do it." And you'd be right. Except my heart is breaking. Intellectually, I know it will be good for him. The wild man needs to make some friends and play with kids his own age. He'll be happier for it. He really needs to learn some social skills *seriously needs this* and I know he'll benefit. How do you do it??? How do you choose a complete stranger and trust her with your most precious? Especially in my case, where I've already lost a child and know how that feels. There's no way in this world I would retain my sanity if something were to happen to my little man. I already dipped over that dark edge once. How am I going to survive this? It's just a matter of time before I start getting called in for interviews (I hope). I need to be prepared and I have no clue where to start.

On an up note, the job I'm applying for is Secretary at our local Jr High school. My best girl friend will appreciate the irony in this!!

Got to run...wild man needs to wake up and we have to pick up his daddy! Any advice on the above?? I'm happy to hear all comers!


  1. As a mom who has had her child in daycare since 12 weeks post birth...I can tell you that it gets easier. I can also tell you that it still sucks! I'm sure you find that enormously comforting...NOT. The good news really is that there are decent capable people out there. I wish you well!

  2. I do think you must stay calm. My older girl started the pre-school in the beginning of this year. And still now, i am always shaking everytime the phone rings! But eventualy you will start to forget. It is good for them, because they can start to leran that they are not the only kids in the world, and good for them that they start to know how to defend themselfs for the outsiders. I'm still at home with the smaller one, but in need of some adult conversation, and also like you some extra $$ on my pocket. But since i moved to South Africa, since i am a outsider, my husband must suport me, so the only way that i will be working is with him!
    Hang in there, you'll see, at the end of the day, you will be asking your little mam, how was school, and you will be happy to see the asnwers that he has!


Books on Tap for 2011

  • Knit Together - Debbie Macomber
  • Captured by Grace - Dr. David Jeremiah
  • Murder Most Foul - A Collection of Great Crime Stories
  • Fireproof - Eric Wilson
  • There's Something About Christmas - Debbie Macomber
  • Questioning Evangelism - Randy Newman
  • Murder Uncorked - Michele Scott
  • A Sacred Sorrow - Michael Card
  • Prayer: Does it Make any Difference? - Philip Yancey
  • Get Out of That Pit - Beth Moore

Books Read in 2011

  • What a Sista Should Do - Tiffany L. Warren
  • 90 Minutes in Heaven - Don Piper
  • Forgotten God - Francis Chan
  • The Purpose Driven Life - Rick Warren
  • Dead Reckoning - Charlaine Harris
  • Shadowfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Chill Factor - Sandra Brown
  • Heaven Has a Blue Carpet - Sharon Niedzinski
  • Dreamfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Wednesday Sisters - Meg Waite Clayton
  • Stealing Home - Sherryl Woods
  • Bound for Murder - Laura Childs
  • Bloodfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Faefever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Darkfever - Karen Marie Moning
  • Under Her Skin - Susan Mallery
  • The Red Pyramid - Rick Riordan
  • No Wonder They Call Him Saviour - Max Lucado
  • I Still Dream About You - Fannie Flagg
  • I Am Number Four - Pittacus Lore
  • The Last Olympian - Rick Riordan
  • Spider Bones - Kathy Reichs
  • A Thread So Thin - Marie Bostwick
  • The Battle of the Labyrinth - Rick Riordan
  • The Search - Nora Roberts
  • The Titan's Curse - Rick Riordan
  • Wicked Appetite - Janet Evanovich
  • The Sea of Monsters - Rick Riordan
  • Awakened - PC & Kristen Cast
  • The Lightning Thief - Rick Riordan
  • Photo Finished - Larua Childs
  • Keepsake Crimes - Laura Childs
  • Sizzling Sixteen - Janet Evanovich
  • The Icing on the Cupcake - Jennifer Ross
  • Fleece Navidad - Maggie Sefton
  • Dyer Consequences - Maggie Sefton
  • The Darling Dahlias and the Cucumber Tree - Susan Wittig Albert
  • Heaven Has a Blue Carpet - Sharon Niedzinski
  • Dreamfever - Karen Marie Moning

Books Read in 2010

  • The Yada Yado Prayer Group - Netta Jackson
  • Silver Borne - Patricia Briggs
  • The Hole in Our Gospel - Richard Stearns
  • A Winter Marriage - Kerry Hardie
  • So Long, Insecurity - Beth Moore
  • Knit the Season - Kate Jacobs
  • Dead and Berried - Karen MacInerney
  • Murder on the Rocks - Karen MacInerney
  • where do i go - Netta Jackson
  • be sweet - diane hunt
  • The Lost Symbol - Dan Brown
  • Raven - Allison Van Deipen
  • Push (Precious) - sapphire
  • Faces of the Gone - Brad Parks
  • The Lace Reader - Brunonia Barry
  • Burning Lamp - Amanda Quick
  • Fired Up - Jayne Ann Krentz
  • The School of Essential Ingredients - Erica Bauermeister
  • Matters Arising - Sarah Harrison
  • The Sheen on the Silk - Anne Perry
  • I Saw the Lord - Anne Graham Lotz
  • The Dangerous Protector - Janet Chapman
  • The Seduction of His Wife - Janet Chapman
  • Re-reading all the Tintin graphic novels - Herge
  • The Sugar Queen - Sarah Addison Allen
  • the last time i saw you - Elizabeth Berg
  • Garden Spells - Sarah Addison Allen
  • Wild Ride - Jennifer Crusie & Bob Mayer
  • Dead in the Family - Charlaine Harris
  • The Girl Who Chased the Moon - Sarah Addison Allen
  • Grave Secret - Charlaine Harris
  • Crawl Space - Sarah Graves
  • The Honey Thief - Elizabeth Graver
  • The Otherworldlies - Jennifer Anne Kogler
  • Saving CeeCee Honeycutt - Beth Hoffman
  • A Face at the Window - Sarah Graves
  • Draycott Eternal - Christina Skye
  • Shelter Mountain - Robin Carr
  • Virgin River - Robyn Carr
  • Death by Cashmere - Sally Goldenbaum
  • An Ice Cold Grave - Charlaine Harris
  • Grave Surprise - Charlaine Harris
  • Grave Sight - Charlaine Harris