After much debate and many bouts of anxiety, I've finally come to the decision that I'm going to have to go back to work much sooner than I had anticipated. The problem isn't the work part because I actually love having some $$ in my pocket and interacting with adults. No, instead it is a much more serious and unexpected issue. I don't want to put the wild man in daycare! Can you imagine??? Those of you who know me are already surprised that I elected to stay home with him in the first place. Now that I am faced with having to put him into unknown and potentially dangerous hands I'm really freaking out. Like "waking up in the middle of the night in cold sweats" freaking out. You seasoned moms who have been dealing with the daycare issue all along might say, "buck up baby, we all have to do it." And you'd be right. Except my heart is breaking. Intellectually, I know it will be good for him. The wild man needs to make some friends and play with kids his own age. He'll be happier for it. He really needs to learn some social skills *seriously needs this* and I know he'll benefit. How do you do it??? How do you choose a complete stranger and trust her with your most precious? Especially in my case, where I've already lost a child and know how that feels. There's no way in this world I would retain my sanity if something were to happen to my little man. I already dipped over that dark edge once. How am I going to survive this? It's just a matter of time before I start getting called in for interviews (I hope). I need to be prepared and I have no clue where to start.
On an up note, the job I'm applying for is Secretary at our local Jr High school. My best girl friend will appreciate the irony in this!!
Got to run...wild man needs to wake up and we have to pick up his daddy! Any advice on the above?? I'm happy to hear all comers!
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As a mom who has had her child in daycare since 12 weeks post birth...I can tell you that it gets easier. I can also tell you that it still sucks! I'm sure you find that enormously comforting...NOT. The good news really is that there are decent capable people out there. I wish you well!
ReplyDeleteI do think you must stay calm. My older girl started the pre-school in the beginning of this year. And still now, i am always shaking everytime the phone rings! But eventualy you will start to forget. It is good for them, because they can start to leran that they are not the only kids in the world, and good for them that they start to know how to defend themselfs for the outsiders. I'm still at home with the smaller one, but in need of some adult conversation, and also like you some extra $$ on my pocket. But since i moved to South Africa, since i am a outsider, my husband must suport me, so the only way that i will be working is with him!
ReplyDeleteHang in there, you'll see, at the end of the day, you will be asking your little mam, how was school, and you will be happy to see the asnwers that he has!